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of organisation + administration + Courts Martial + keeping this
ruddy barracks + all that goes with it in order Apart
from that I have an old visit onto a Hospital ship or
a destroyer - + tea or drink with the Hopkins +
when I am late for lunch or supper - a meal in
the tower Otherwise I just have meats in the mess
go to the Garrison Cinema when I know it is a good
film because I have seen it in England + there are
never any new ones + have baths + showers + change
my clothes + go to bed And in between times I
sit in my room with all your photographs arrainged
so as I can see them + either think about you
or write to you or normally a mixture of the two
I'm afraid I read practically nothing at all which
is not what I intended but then I never thought
of having to work so consistently hard more or less
the same as in business + of spending all the
remaining available time in writing to you I wander
what you think of me + the way of life I seem to
have fallen into You must remember that I do not
by any means take all this as inevitable thank
God I am always + continually in an expectant
stage- reading the paper avidly every morning
never missing the London news broadcast + always
hoping that something will suddenly happen to
cause me to be sent home to you This may be
futile + silly but I would very much rather have
it this way than be in a condition of taking