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Capt J. H Massey 6th Palestinian Company The Buffs M.E.F
Letter. no. 21 5 March 41 Wednesday My darling one - This is a new idea, & we are now allowed one of these each week, & the postage, as you see, is 3d. It is a good idea & much appreciated, but I don't expect it will go any quicker than usual - & personally I should prefer to be able to spend a little more & know that it was going to be quicker. But, it is good for the men. I had another letter from you two days ago, on Monday - your 21st dated Jan 7th - & I cannot tell you how wonderful it was to have it. It was a very sweet & lovely & charming & interesting letter - & I nearly swooned with happiness, & sympathy & agreement, & indignation, according to what you were telling me, as I read it. It seems obvious now that air mail is quicker - as I have had none of your sea mail ones yet, I have sent 3 or 4 by sea, & now I am furious, because you will probably have quite a gap, & no letters at all. But 3 people I know, have had sea mail of quite late dates, & no air mail at all. I am so glad & happy that the ring arrived safely & that you like it. I thought you would do. If only I could put it on your finger for you. It seems to bring us so much nearer together again,t hat you have received letters & a present from me, & that I know you have & am now writing back to you you about it again. On the other hand, by the time you get this, it will be five months since the letters & ring were sent off by me & so we are not so near. It is just five months today since our last night together what an age it seems, my own darling - & what an age it is for you & I to be away from each other. Such an awful waste of time, & as every day passes, more time is being wasted. I wish I knew when it would end. Can you believe, darling sweetheart, how much I long & yearn to be with you. When we are together again, we must never allow any waste of time again. I hope you will want with me, that we should never be apart & away from
each other, except for very short times - no more than hours, if possible. We must so arrange our lives that we can pursue our own interests - you, yours in particular - without them taking us away from each other. If you were to go away from me, it should be for something special & interesting, & exciting - & if it is, I should want to be with you.
Having written so far, it has made me stop & think about you, & about our past life & our future life. And, oh darling, I do pray, every day, from the bottom of my heart, that I shall come back to you soon - or that you will be able to come safely out here, & bring the baby too. You do understand darling, don't you, the way I feel about you & love you? It is tremendously tender & deep & sincere & real & everlasting. I am so completely & entirely yours & it could never be any different. And more & more & more, I admire you & trust you & look up to you. And also, I cannot help thinking very much about you yourself & your face, & all its feature & your body & all its parts. And I cannot help thinking very passionately & realistically. You are so lovely & wonderful, my darling - & I do remember you so perfectly.
Your letters are marvellous, Barbara dearest. They just seem to tell me the things I want to know, & about which I have been thinking. And I feel too, perhaps, that some of my letters have anticipated what you have been thinking about. And before I reach the end of this letter, let me answer some of the things you want to know, perhaps want to hear from me about. First & foremost, the baby. And I do hope this letter will arrive before it comes. I am sure everything will be alright & I am so relieved that you have gone on with Hughes that you like him. If you want to , Hughes
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says so & agrees, I hope you will have a Caesar. I know it will be hard to be brave, my sweet darling - but you must not be afraid, & I know that, it will be alright. But I do want you to have as little pain & suffering as possible. And that Lisa & I will not be around. That cannot be got over, can it? But I shall be thinking of you every minute - & I always feel - & always will feel, that Lisa is somewhere & I hope & pray that she may come back to us in some way, with the new baby. I think about Lisa every day, my darling. She was a lovely little sweetheart. Every single day I find it difficult to believe. But I must think about her, & I know you must too. You must not feel too sad or remember too much, when you have the new baby, my darling. You must think ahead & do all you can for yourself & the baby. All this must & will end before very long. We have a great deal - more than anybody else in the world - too look forward to. And we must look forward. I hope this gets to you quickly - & I will be writing to you again in a day or two, & will keep on all the times. All my love & kisses to you darling - always from the depths of my being - your own Harry.
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