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Sacto [Sacramento] City April 26 1850

My Dear Beloved Wife

You cannot conceive how buoyant
my spirits have been today since I received your
letter dated Feb 1: I should have received it a
week since but I have been out of the city into
the mountains for two weeks and just Returned
yesterday. I had almost given up hearing from
you for I sometimes thought that you had forgotten
me or that your love was growing cold to me but
Pride forbode [forebode] me thinking so hope bode me cherish
brighter visions and Faith in your spotless virtue
and constancy caused me still to look to you as
the beacon star of my existence and time has
rolled round with his sintering steeds and relieved me from
all care and anxiety, but dearest why did you not write
sooner? Why did you not tell me when you did write
how you passed through your confinement surely you
know it would have been very interesting to me.

I fear dearest you will weep when you receive my last
letter. I fear I chided you too severely for not writing to
me but I wept while I was writing it but I did not think
of the trouble the children were to you preventing you from
writing to me but it is all past now and I am again
happy in the full confidence of my dear wifes [wife's] love and
I shall redouble my exertions to make a good noise
and hurry home to enjoy that sweet love and that very