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her since I have been in California. The first last
& only one should I remain here twenty years --

I will now tell you why I think myself innocent
of the charges you preferred against me in your letter of Aug
31st. When I wrote you the 7th of July that I intended
to conduct myself differently & to have nothing more
to do with Lize T-r [abbreviated last name] I was sincere in what I wrote
& I was in hopes you would have had no reason to doubt
me. & the only way I deceived you at that time was
by not telling you that I had received a letter
from her among others which I received on arrival here
& found at Mr. Waltons but if I remember right I did
not say that I did not receive one from her which I did
do & received another last Friday the 8th inst. but I have not
received one single line from W. Ames.

I wish to have you understand that I had written
her before I wrote you & that before I wrote you what I
did I had firmly resolved to try and atone for
past misconduct which resolution thus far remains
unbroken. When I first read your letter of the 31st Aug
however, I felt miserable enough & for some time could
not see why you should accuse me so hard while I
thought myself innocent, but I now think you did not
fully understand me but I hope & trust that the a-
bove explanation will prove satisfactory & that you will
no longer have reason to doubt me & you may rest assured
that I shall endeavor to do as you wish to have me do
so far as I can & any advice you may give me from
time to time I will try and profit by to the best of