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about 45 & was a Turkish Officer in the last war. He
speaks beautiful English, French, German, Arabic better
than most Arabs, Turkish, Russian. He is very
delicate looking - small hands & fingers. I noticed
his ears, which were small & thin, just like a
girl's. Naturally, I could not understand a word
of his speech but it was obviously very powerful.
And Ben told me that half of it was based on &
built round my speech. It seems I was alright
because I got lots of hand shakes & thank yous very
much afterwards. I have now been asked to go
& speak at a place called Zikhran Ya'acu on
Tuesday. I wonder what you think about all
this business, Barbara dear? It certainly does me
a great deal of good & has already given me far
more confidence in myself on such occasions &
also, I feel, a steadier command of words. And I
must say that I enjoy it too, though I don't quite
know why. One thing is that it is a test. I
am interested to see how I go on. I had notes
last night, just of the headings of my speech for the
sequence & was able to hold this paper in my hand
quite steadily & my voice was alright too. Whereas,
in my first attempts, when I was 21, to the B.C.S.N.
Foremans Assn - & to the Bing Terrible Society, I
was so nervous I could hardly hold the paper &
my voice was quite uncontrolled, hollow &
peculiar & seemed to come from someone or
somewhere else. You must know the feeling