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April 4 A fine morning and I had good night, and my
health is improving, O lord, open thou my lips: and my mouth
Shall shew for thy praise.
For I acknowledge my transgressions, and my sin is ever before me,
holy shame and godly Sorrow, for past follies. fill my heart ^with^ grief
While the comforter inwardly testifies of jesus his love, how infinite
his salvation. how perfect his person how precious. his promises,
I am more and more convinced that the happiness of heaven
is a benevolent happiness in proportion as my joy has increased
I have been filled with intense love to all creatures,
And a Strong desire that they might pertake of my happiness
After my Dear Son death when my Dear friends all to see Payson
Me, there affection looks and words had such an affect on me
that I was in the dust, and I Love evry body that
Breath and live I hope that it was a Devine love
and if i am not deacived i Sill Love Evry body I want
more love to god, I do hunger after more love