Diaries

17 a warm rain this morning I am not so well a pain ^head^ in O fear the lord all ye his Saints for there is no want/ to them that fear him, Earthly cisterns may be broken, And temporal Streams of enjoyment may cease, but the fountain of living waters is inxhaustible, take lesson of filial piety children are under indispensable obligation to comfort there aged parents, the fifth commandment is, honor thy father and thy mother, that they day may be long in the land, which thy lord thy god giveth the Eph 623 honor thy father and mother. which is the first commandment, with promise, that it may be well with/ thee, and thou mayest live long on the Earth, Amen A wish and hope that it may be as we ask. [Indent into center of page] all hail the power of jesus name let angels prostrate fall: bring forth the royal: diadem. and crown him lord of all. [End of indent]

March 18, 1832 - this is the Sabbath I desire to praise the lord for hid gooness to me in Sparing my life to this holy day. I have had liberty in prayer this morning, prayer is the only Shield which can repel the firry darts of temptation: the only weapon with which the Soul can affectually resist the destroyer it is the impenetrable Brestplate of the righteous and a key to the treasury of heaven: call upon me in the hour of trouble and I will help you [Indent into center of page] Welcome, Sweet day of rest, that Saw the lord arise, Welcome to this reviving breast, And these rejoicing Eyes, the king himself comes near. And feasts his Saints to day here we may sit, and see him here, and love, and praise, and pray [End indent]

one day amidst the place Where my dear god hath been, is Sweeter than ten thousand days of pleasurable Sin, my willing Soul would Stay In such a frame as this: And sit and sing herself away to everlasting bliss, [End of indent] Now we bid this Sabbath welcome: hosanna to the Son of david Blessed is he that cometh in the name of the lord, hosanna in the highest. O that we may be in the Spirit on this lord^s^ day: that this may be the Sabbath of the lord in our dwelling: in our hearts, a Sabbath of rest from Sin and a Sabbath of rest in god. enabl us we pray thee. So to Sanctify this Sabbath, as that it may be Sanctification to our Souls and body. A Stormy Windy and Snow and very cold day.

[Indent into center of page] time time, as he passes us. has a doves Wing, unsoiled, and Swift.” [End of indent] O how Sick was poor Lydia last year this day, no Strength of constitution can withstand the Stroke of death, when he aims the blow, the physicians skill – his drugs and restorations are of no avail, they lose their healing influence and refuse there Wanted support to the springs of life the dearest ties that bind man to earth are sundered, through We loved as jonathan and David, Yet will death ere long shroud the object of our affections in the dark tomb, and Wrest the blessings of life our Embrace. the Assembly’s cateehism Lydia and my Self Said this all Most Evry Sabbath Eving and all our Hymn. We could Say Great many. I love to Say them and I never was more happy It brought to my mind our children all around me as usal on the Sabbath Eving, and great many chase of the bible by heart,

I recived from my sister letter from Newburgh March 10 1832 Friday and Saturday night I could not close my eyes to sleep for thinking of Lydia. Though I do not wish her here but I feel her loss more and more but my loss is her Everlasting gain. for my feelings are such I cannot tell what to say it seem a little while since Daniel and Lydia fell a sleep they feel no sorrow nor trouble. There Enjoyment is perfect to our state of trial, if god loves us he feels more for us than human friends and if he smites us it is because he sees we need it.

[The I] I do not feel quite well and when my health is feeble my animap spirits always decline I feel weak and in pain I will sing of mercy and judgment: unto the o lord will I sing

A Dear christen friend from Newburgh to tea in the afternoon and Elisebeth and [cosen] cross [went] to [Rosbury] to see there aunt.

March 20 I feel rath better this morning I have a [bliter] on and that have aford me relife, come and hear, all ye that feer god. and I will declare what he hath done for my soul. Blessed by god, which hath not turned away my prayer nor his mercy from me. Grant O lord that we may not only hear, read, mark, and learn But inwardly digest the holy scriptures, as soon as the lord hath fulfilled this prayer upon any poor sinner then jesus is the hope of his soul: he esteems the scriptures as his daily food Who have also "found gods words and have eat them the volume of thy fathers grace Doth all my griefs assuage here I behold my Saviours face Almost in every page O may thy counsels mighty god, My roving feet command; Nor I forsake the happy road

that leads to thy right hand 20 All lone this afternoon. once I had my Dear children withe me, but many of them are nomore, I am like a Sparrow upon the house top O keep my Soul. and deliver' me: let me not be ashamed, for I put my trus in thee. Let integrity and unrightness prserve me, for I wait on thee, the first woman is said to have been formed out of man it is observable. that the woman was neither taken out of the head, nor from the fee. but from the side and near the heart if therefore on the one hand, she ought not to assume Pre eminence on the other she is not to be trampled on and despised. but received as an equal and a friend the dark [day]

March 21 a rainy day the [weather] much warmer and Hope that we shall not have anny more cold weather. I am better in my health this morning, and had nearness to god in prayer, pray without ceasing. Such is our dependance upon god. that we are obliged not only to every thing for his saike, the same apostle advises us to pray whe we are in trouble, because thereby we should find consolation. My Dear sister in christ. Mrs Gray often in prayer repeat this verse, though ye have lain among the [pots], yet shall ye be as the wings of a dove covered with silver, and her feathers with yellow gold,

22 a pleasant morning and I had good night and am better Bless the lord for all his goodness to me. A year ago my poor Lydia was very sick this day, she often and my self visited the grave of my son. She said who will be laid next here, we bemoan my loss. it was no common mourning. we stood upon the ground in grief in sorrow, the big tears of [undisconsolable] Pain poured down our cheaks, how did affection recal the days And months, and years of childhood which time had strength ened, but death had now dissolved: and yet, while nature demanded this tribute of fond remembrance, religion had taught me to moderate my distress, and to elevate my hopes to a brighter world, where holy friendships, begun on Earth, Shall be prified and perpetuated through Everlasting Ages, happy for us, if it should appear that wea re going to join the society of the blessed: if possessing the faith of abraham We have reason to indulge the hope of being eventually transported to his bosom Last Night I dream of Daniel as he was at the year of ten and Frances a little girl

23 a very plesat morning and I have a Dear christen friend come to see me and we had sweet season of pray together. this fills the immortal mind with Love to god and binds the soul together like david and jonathan

Support my weak and [tollering] faith Whilst dismal fears annoy My Jesus be my sweet defence My Jesus be my joy.

friday morning my Dear Sisters came for prayer I enjoyed it. it seemed delightful to meet with the Dear people of god though i felt as if i was not worthy to appear among them I felt a sweet love to them all, and to the holl world our Dear friend Mrs Huntington after the death of her husband requested these lines the dearest Idol I have known. Whate'er that idol be, help me to [tear] it from its throne: and woship only

very feeble this afternoon and [Evening]