Teaching Paleography 2022

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To begin then, and dally no longer; The first 13. yeares of my life. I lived without any reflexe thoughts; though I could stand, and answer my father, like an hypocrite, when he posed mee in religious matters; yet was I very rebellious, and feirce against my mother and the servants (who yet dealt [ ] [ ] with my childish impetuous nature) so long I scarse knew practicallye, the right hand in religion from the lefte; About that time (as I take it;) my father was exercising (ut solst) in his familye upon the 11. math: []2. last. v^s. come unto mee, yee that are heavy loaden; &: Art thou loaden? [ ] no, no; answered my soule; / whereat I was a litle startled; but the hedge (as my age) was but low, ad the devell trode it downe, with ease. when I was about. 13. and an halfe my father senig how litle I had profited under such a diversity of schoole masters, as wee had at weth[ers] feild; sends mee, to Felsted wher indeed, I thinke, I got more good in

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in one 2. yeares. with the blessing of god upon the diligent labours of my godly master M^r Holbeack, the[ ] I got in many twoos before; the 1. yeare I borded at M^r Fitches; = where I passed many a day of [ ] [ ]itye; amongst the rest, upon may day was 7. yeare; viz: 1627. / I made account to adde one more ad being holyday; Mary Adams, our maide asked mee, if I would goe to heare M^r Wells at Terling; to which I answered yea; and so went slipping, but why? the maine cause that drew mee (as I remember) was that I might see a new towne; and heare a new man; *Athenian as I was I desired noveltyes; though with an unknowne god; / But god had another end, though I knew nothing well; M^r Wells his mournsfull prayer melted mee into teares (as I thinke) but his sermon especiallye, which was upon the parable; I have bought a yoke of oxeen; &: his D. pleasures or earthly matters keepe many men from heaven;

Heere was I touched to the quicke: for I knew, my play and pleasure (to which I am beyond measure naturally [] to. I had kept mee from the way [] as yet. The whole sermon melted mee, and made mee come sobbing home; an my cast of any pleasures, and desired in some yoke measures to attend to what I was to Joe; I to ??? set him an love

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Novemb; 18. 1634

I have not walked with that sense _^of gods love (this day) as sometimes my god freely hath granted to mee; yet herein I praise the lord, that I have lest my hold, and confidencs, which his sy: hath wrought; the lord hath also comforted mee with many secret eia culations, ad lest us my wofull flag= ging heart, which to my sorrowfully ness back, when by the wings of faith ad love I would fly to my god of holines oh when _^shall I com[] [ ] ad as years = where sin shall be no more, nor sor row no more; but I shall inbath my selfe in the torrent of my fathers love; and shall praise him [ ]estly, whom I (though weakely) desires to praise forever.

19. I said, my god, my god, why hast thou forsaken me! / he had forsaken, yet he was his god; / the lord this day hath closed his ears; unwilling to heare mee; yet in the garden of anguish, (temp tations, unfowardnes; un[ ]nes in the considerat; of the [ ] [ ]ises, ad [ ], which often hand [ ]lted mee) yea in the whales belly of corrupt I will lye downe looking towards his [ ]

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20. I was almost cast down (with Heman) all this day; my strength seemed to faile mee, but the lord faileth mee never; I walked in darknes[ ], the for mer [ ] of it; yet I thanke the lord I [ ]led with my bodye of death, ad the devell; ad the lord now in prayer toward my lying downe hath comforted mee, and given mee some [ ]; upon this experience, I will tempt him, yea call upon him as long as I live.

21. [ ]moiling ocasions have made mee unfit to pray; suppers, libertyes, com= =pany lawfull all; yet I gave [ ] too effuse in laughter (which my good father hath often told mee of) ad lavish on words I [ ] lord; say [ ] on as once to David, thy sin is put away Quin ad que (Domine) sum pars * aedifing tui, tu tofum struxisti aedificium; a[ ]ti tu cor meum (oh mirum) lapideum terrenum, et coniunxesti δωρεαν, id strvctv rae tvae: fac Domine et exiberantia hvius lapidis excindantvr senitvs, ne sim dedecovi aedificio tvo.

* 2.Ephes:21