(seq. 60)

Now I wish to give you folks a caution about
exposing the contents of my letters, as several things
that I have written have been reported in Easton
and so returned to Rochelle. One case was E's sick-
ness, but that I did not wonder at. Another was the
case of that little affray about my reproving a schol-
ar (and as it now goes) in the absence of Eunice which
is a perfect falsehood, for it was done when E was at home
and she was knowing to the whole affair and approved of
it. Now I wish to know who told this thing, and to whom
and how it got to Eastons, for I cannot believe
it has ever been told by any of our family, to any
body except some of Christopher Kenyon's family, if so then they
have done that they should not and that, that has
grieved me very much. The news came back by
S. Bowne's wife who visited Kenyons, and I have no
doubt it was there she heard the news. I think it
is the most mortifying thing I ever met with. I have
not yet seen E. Bowne and almost feel as if I did
not wish to, for she must think me as well our
(the way the story is now going) to help nothing more nor left
than tattlers. Well to make the best of this I want to
know the truth about the source of the story and
for the future I will endeavor to be more guarded
about what I write. I have now a little something
I would like exceedingly to tell you of but having
heard what I have fearing this might cause
the same feelings among so many persons, I dare not
hardly say it. I wrote it in my last showed it to E
but she requested me not to write it therefore
scratched it out, not knowing at the time the season she
wished me not to say it, but now I can comprehend
the whole. I would not send this until I receive an-
Other letter from you were it not for getting an
answer to the above before G. P. leaves home. I
shall be anxious to hear the answer as soon as possible.
After school, sometimes, I almost feel as if I must be
at home and see sister once more before she
leaves us, and think I would, could I be profitably
employed, but I will cheerfully give up the idea
and remain in Rochelle until the time arrives for my
once more returning home. And as cheerfully give her
up, to be the companion of another, who I
hope & trust is more worthy of her society as a partner than this unworthy heart
who now writes as a sister. Often have I felt as if I were hardly worthy
of a sister, such an ungrateful being am I that I do
not merit such a helping. Yes, now in my absence from
home and friends, do I fully realize the worth of
those dear confidential inmates of Centre Galts house.

I hope all that I have said
and done amiss will be overlooked and forgotten.

I am too low spirits to think of any thing
to say and as it is now about time to send this and the post
office will close, but do not think by my [ ]
spirits that I am homesick, so though I would glad-
ly be there if circumstances would admit yet I
feel best as things now are to remain where I am.

My love to all our folds, yourself included.

SBA

A.M. McLean