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chattered, but still very unhappy & lonely. I had been
thinking a great deal about [illegible] last weekend - &
then on Monday, your letters nos. 77 & 79 arrived, & one
of them said quite a lot about her, & described some
things about the darling which you had been
remembering - & that overwhelmed me with the same
memories, & I could not help crying. And it was
only two hours later that Peter was wiped out.
And I just felt that it was too much - . I asked
myself, & I will do, why it is that you & I have
to suffer such tragedies. There never seems to be
any half way for us. The boy could hvae been born
weak - but not [illegible]. And Lisa - she could surely
have been ill, as other children are - but [illegible]
just swept away from us as she was.
And now my dog - surely he could have been hurt
or injured - but no - it had to be sadder
death, & no chance given to me to do anything for him.
I must come home to you soon, & I hope
the war end too. And then you & I & [illegible]
can begin to build up our lives together.
Quite apart from any qualities which you & I
may have - . yours. My darling, are very great
you & I do seem to have the quality of
having wonderful & charming children, who are
loved by other people. Lisa was so universally
liked & admired, & you know what a gift she
had for friendliness. Climbing up the gate at
Nab [?] house & saying "Hello" - & "What you
doing?" And talking to the old man next