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6/ in [?] that night - love again when we were in bed- very carefully + very gently You were sweet to me my darling You must have been so lonely + cold in bed all these months poor sweetheart And then the drive to Horsforth I cannot remember either why it was the Wolsely + not the Ford I think the Ford must have been broken or in for repair for remember Keyon's ^car brought you + Lisa back from the home Those were very happy days I hope + pray you will be rewarded + compensated with an easy time this time If only Lisa + I could be with you Oh darling you are quite right I should have gone to the General about coming out here What with compassionate grounds + my transfer to the 7" all lined up + Zag wanting me I would have stood quite a good chance And we were foolish to think you might get out here it is (1) A.I.M.N.S. only I too hope to have some words with Bramley Davenport when I come home I keep saying that I will tell you about this barracks but there is much that I cannot + may not say + in any case it is not so interesting But it is very large + vast + I am master of all I survey + in addition to being O.C. my own Coy I am now O.C. the Barracks too this entails much more responsibility + work but no more pay I am afraid But it is all the more limelight + so all to the good- unless I make a mess of things Wednesday May 21st I'm afraid I dried up rather abruptly last night But I fell to thinking about you + things
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7 + then felt sleepy + so went to bed I seem to have dried up rather in my letter writing capabilities But so little of interest to you seems to be happenng to me nowadays sometimes there are things but they seem so trivial + unimportant + I'm afraid of you being bored with my letters but perhaps I had better risk such things + at least it will be more for you to read from me + about me Also I seem to be so dreamy nowadays + I just sit for ages gazing at your photographs + at the blank wall in front of me + wondering about you + what you are doing + thinking of the past + imagining or doing my best to the future and I never waste any time nowadays by dropping off to sleep in that bad way which I used to at home Except the other evening when I went off into a hell of a doze after dinner But I had three spanking Plymouth Gins before beer with + brandy after dinner + it was a very small cabin + no window (or port hole) open at all on account of the black out just a fan churning up the foul air + four men all smoking hard And the conversation became very dull + nautical Poor but I enjoyed it all the same There was another Naval Commander there who I know quite well + a little Major from the Royal Engineers who used to be in the 7th Bn years ago + before my time We finally went out into the town for some beer where I had not enough money to buy a round so that was fine the other commander was R.N.R. that is reserve + was in the film business in civil life I had been talking to him previously about British Dominion Films + their foul shares He said they were the most awful camp
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8/ like several other of those film companies the same man also paid me a nice compliment For a time I had been finding some fairly important guards which had to do with him Changes were being made + he appently got a bit browned off with being pushed about + told the Army H.Q. people here that if Massey wsa running it that was alright otherwise he would want to know a lot more about it So I said thank you very much The following night I went to the cinema with Moscaritz + his wife who wsa up for the week end The film was Remember with Robert Taylor + Greer Garson It was very amusing indeed + lovely You remember I saw her for the first time in "Pride + Prejudice" in Capetown + was very much impressed She seems so intelligent + has so much poise in both of which she is like you my darling- though you are not at all alike to look at I think I must bring this rather disjointed letter to an end now + send it away to you in the morning I do pray that I hear from you about the baby in a day or two + then I really will be able to write to you Everything will be alright but I am even so terribly anxious + nervous You have had so much to bear in the last 1 1/2 years + you must not be asked to bear any more You sweet darling why should you of all people have to And I love you so very much + nothing must go wrong to hurt you or to hurt the baby You are everything + nobody which would or could make me stay alive if anything were to happen to you Bless you sweetest for all you have done for me For making me so happy Harry xxxx
