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coming home- + then they really will be mosly cheerful
And another thing darling- you must not be sorry for
me when you think of me having no friends. In
the first place I really + truly want to have my evenings
to myself- to write + to read + to read + re read
your letters. A lot of friends would be an embarrassment
+ a nuisance because I should have to sit + talk to
them + go out with them + individually spend our
money. And again I am even more intolerant
than I ever was before + it would be difficult to find
any. Ben I am very fond of + he is now quite
one of the best friends I have ever had. But I now
have such very strong ideas about our country + how it
should be run. + there are very seldom shared by
officers you know. I would not ever like to have
Frank Macakie with me + especially not in this
job because there are not the possibility or opportunity
to explain our ideas our energy- + we should only be
able to do a lot of talking + drink too much +
get [?] off. No, with this job, I am happy enough
as I am. But I would like a job with more
possibilites + more outlet for my ideas + energies-
but I seem to be stuck. Except that I have one or
two projects, about which I cannot tell you I'm
afraid- + I propose to put up several reports +
letters during the next week or two. And if the
results are negative or discouraging- + if my
next posting application is also negative- then I
shall dive in headfirst + either make or break
myself. I'm easy to be mysterious but I cannot possibly
put down in a letter what I am thinking about
But please do not worry, or think I may get into