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Letter No. 33 18 Apr 41 Major J.H.Massey, 6th Palestinian Company, The Buffs. Middle East Forces.
My own sweet darling - I feel so unhappy and miserable again, having no letters from you, and I hardly know how to write. And on one of these cards too. I have just discovered that these things are supposed to get home quicker than the normal air mail, so I hope it is true - and I wish you could do this too. Why can't they realise that it helps the morale of the troops to receive letters as well as to be able to send them. But i must try and stop this incessart grumbling, when I write to you. It is difficult though, darlying - and I'm afraid I am a very unhappy major. I am missing you so terribly badly at the moment , and I am frantically anxious to know how you are, and how your are feeling, and what you are doing. If you are having the baby after eight months, and I do you are, it will be in 10 days time now. Oh, I think about you so much and so constantly and it is so difficult to write, swwetheart. I just want to send you cables all the time, but, apart from them being so expensive, I always remember that when I do not write now, it means that you are going to have no letters from me in 5/6 weeks' times. But, if I do not hear from you soon, I will send another one in a day or two's time. I so much wanted to have word from you that you are now reassured about the money question - I was so sick that you were so worried about it, at the the time. My cable that what I had had would last until June, will just about work out alright, providing nothing special happens - so I think that is being quite good. Don't you, darling? And I have no bills outstanding here at all. Sweetest darling - I do hope that if ther baby has arrived, you are well and strong, and happy. And that if it is still to come, that you are the same, and that you will not be hurt too much. Oh sweetheart, what have we done, that I should be away from you now? If only I could be with you, I do so long to be. It is heartbreaking, and it make me cry, to think of not being there. Not that i could do any thinkg of real value to help. But just to be with you, and hold you and kiss you. but you must know how much I want to be, and how much I love you. And how much I always
