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Letter No 83 - Thursday 20th Nov.

Major J.H. Massey
5th Palestinian Coy, The Buffs
M.E.F.

My own darling sweetheart

Having sent off an Airgraph on Monday morning to
tell you that your no 59 & photo were missing, they arrived
during the morning - & so I sent off another A.G. straight
away. You started your letter by saying how much you miss me
& that you had had a cry in a field thinking about me.

Oh darling - I miss you beyond bearing too - & how I long to be
with you to comfort you, love you & make you happy &
enjoy all the love & sweet faithfulness which you lavish on me.
I am longing for the opportunity to tell you myself, what
I can never hope to convey to you in my letters, how
much I love & adore & worship & admire you & how much
my whole life & being depends on you & centres round you.

Oh God, but I hope it will be soon - being away from you
is a constant torment. I wish I could cry too - but I
seem to have lost that faculty since my first few weeks
away from you. I think that it was when your letters first
began to arrive that I became stronger, & had
no more cries. Its not important really, but I
sometimes wonder who is worse off - you or me.

Presuming that we both start from being equally
miserable & unhappy - which of us has the greater
amount of compensation & distraction? I have
any amount of distraction in my work - & you have
much compensation in Maxie. And you have
very little distraction & I have practically no
compensation. So there we are - still very
unhappy & missing each other - & apparently no
nearer to any solution. But now things are