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lose a very great deal of faith in myself. You are very
much on a pedestal for me as you must know, & I like
to think of myself up there with you - & if I were ever to
do anything like this, I could never again think of
myself as being your equal. But do not fear, my
darling, because I have faith in myself, & I know
quite certainly that I shall never fail you or myself.
You mentioned selfish reasons - & they are additional
reasons for me too. Our reunion is going to be the
most wonderful thing which has ever happened to
me, & I hope to either of us. And this can only
be so if I come home [?] as I left home.
The fact that we shall be unique has nothing at
all to do with it. - I am equally certain that we
shall be unique in our happiness - joy - love &
passion. The only price I must ask you to pay
my darling, for my chastity, is that from time to
time I shall let off steam in my letters to you.
And with that, I can give you the certain
assurance that all & always, my thoughts & feelings
of love & passion are specifically centered on you &
your lovely body & sweetness, & are never in any way
general & most certainly are never in any way about
any other person. To make myself clear!! - what I
mean to say is that from time to time I see
& meet attractive women, who smell rather luscious
& wear nice clothes & show legs & things - & the
same happens to a lesser degree in photographs in
magazines etc. And I must admit that I