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attractive, well-dressed, with willowy figures & silky
legs. And I could not help thinking of you coming
towards me, as you often have done in places
where we have arranged to meet. And you always
look so beautiful, pretty & attractive & smart, oh
all these things. Your face, your expression has
an understanding & intelligent & bright look, which
I cannot describe. It as always thrilled me, when
I have seen you or met you - as you come to
me - give me a kiss, with a cold face & soft
warm lips, & an adorable look in your lovely
eyes, a little squeeze with your hand. Then I think
of such times now. I know that I very often used
to think those things, but never so vividly as I do
now, looking back I certainly never told you
what I was thinking. It is a most frightful
cost, but that is one thing which this parting
is teaching me, that never again will I be
such a silent lover & admirer. I could strangle
myself now, when I think how very little I told
you about how I loved you & adored you &
thought you wonderful & glorious & incomparable.
Because I [did underlined ] think those things & used
to feel quite faint with thinking them at
times, but I never used to [say underlined[ them
as I want to say them now.
There can never be & never will be an O.W.
my darling. The very thought of it makes me