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Capt J. H Massey
6th Palestinian Company
The Buffs M.E.F

Letter. no. 21 5 March 41 Wednesday
My darling one - This is a new
idea, & we are now allowed one of these each week, &
the postage, as you see, is 3d. It is a good idea & much
appreciated, but I don't expect it will go any quicker than
usual - & personally I should prefer to be able to spend
a little more & know that it was going to be quicker.
But, it is good for the men.
I had another letter from you two days ago, on Monday - your
21st dated Jan 7th - & I cannot tell you how wonderful it
was to have it. It was a very sweet & lovely & charming &
interesting letter - & I nearly swooned with happiness,
& sympathy & agreement, & indignation, according to
what you were telling me, as I read it.
It seems obvious now that air mail is quicker - as
I have had none of your sea mail ones yet, I have
sent 3 or 4 by sea, & now I am furious, because you
will probably have quite a gap, & no letters at all.
But 3 people I know, have had sea mail of quite
late dates, & no air mail at all.
I am so glad & happy that the ring arrived safely &
that you like it. I thought you would do. If only
I could put it on your finger for you. It seems
to bring us so much nearer together again,t hat
you have received letters & a present from me,
& that I know you have & am now writing
back to you you about it again. On the other hand,
by the time you get this, it will be five months
since the letters & ring were sent off by me
& so we are not so near. It is just five months
today since our last night together
what an age it seems, my own darling - & what
an age it is for you & I to be away from
each other. Such an awful waste of time, & as every
day passes, more time is being wasted. I wish
I knew when it would end. Can you believe,
darling sweetheart, how much I long & yearn
to be with you. When we are together again,
we must never allow any waste of time
again. I hope you will want with me, that
we should never be apart & away from

each other, except for very short times - no
more than hours, if possible. We must so
arrange our lives that we can pursue our own
interests - you, yours in particular - without them
taking us away from each other. If you were to
go away from me, it should be for something
special & interesting, & exciting - & if it is, I should
want to be with you.

Having written so far, it has made me stop &
think about you, & about our past life & our future
life. And, oh darling, I do pray, every day, from the
bottom of my heart, that I shall come back to you
soon - or that you will be able to come safely
out here, & bring the baby too. You do understand
darling, don't you, the way I feel about you & love
you? It is tremendously tender & deep & sincere &
real & everlasting. I am so completely & entirely yours
& it could never be any different. And more &
more & more, I admire you & trust you & look
up to you. And also, I cannot help thinking very
much about you yourself & your face, & all its
feature & your body & all its parts. And I cannot
help thinking very passionately & realistically. You
are so lovely & wonderful, my darling - & I do
remember you so perfectly.

Your letters are marvellous, Barbara dearest.
They just seem to tell me the things I want
to know, & about which I have been thinking.
And I feel too, perhaps, that some of my letters
have anticipated what you have been thinking
about. And before I reach the end of this
letter, let me answer some of the things you
want to know, perhaps want to hear from me
about. First & foremost, the baby. And I do hope
this letter will arrive before it comes. I am sure
everything will be alright & I am so relieved
that you have gone on with Hughes that
you like him. If you want to , Hughes