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10. partly because it seemed such a hopeless quest, & partly because of what you say - & partly through procrastination too, in not being able to make my mind up what to do - & partly to wait & see what you said.

But this compassionate method is different - & in the event of this slender chance coming off & my coming home - they would probably put me on a home job of some kind, after service in the M.E. & the reasons for my coming home. The more cheerful tone of your letter, makes it easier for me to face the task of sticking it out here - but even so I still intend & want to try, & I shall long for your reply to come soon. I am just dying for you, sweet Barbara & as you say it is no joke.

And it was sweet of you to understand my wanting sexy photographs of you. What a poor substitute for you yourself - but they would be so lovely to have with me. I think so much of our love life & the wonder & heaven which lies ahead of us when we come together again - oh darling, can you imagine how gorgeous & thrilling it is going to be. I hope Elinor & Nicolette will be coming to stay with you.

And I am now sending you one I did not send on before - in which my towel is not arranged in too ladylike a position. also one I forgot, of myself & Headley; I cannot find the negative & so maybe I sent it on already. I think it would be a good idea if I sent you some photo printing paper - & I will do this by Airmail.

Max looks grand in the snaps - really perfect & lovely. I like the one of him looking over your