p.

4.

it, because it is giving me a foul headache.
I do have some odd times, from time to time
really. And having been here, solidly, every day for the
last five weeks, Col Leicester chose this day to come &
see me. But I am told that Peter gave him a
great welcome.

I must take 3 aspirins & go to bed. Goodnight sweetest
darling Barbara XXXXX

Saturday Oct 18th Angel darling heart - I'm getting in a most
frightful state about this question of me coming home or
you coming out here. I am quite unable to think of
anything else. As you see, I was about to write to you
on Thursday & then your cable arrived. I could not
write - & I had to go out at 8.30 anyway. And last
night, I wrote you a L.C telling you as much as I
could of my plans & ideas. Within a few days, I should
know more clearly as to whetehr or not this thing
is within the bounds of possibilitye or not. I am only
too afraid that it may be the latter, in which case
I must come down to hearth again, & compose myself, &
settle down seriously to the tack of getting myself
sent home. No matter what happends, I have definitely
finished with complacently sitting here & waitinf for the
end of the war. I just cannot bear, my darling, to
be parted from you one minute longer that is
necessary - & so I shall go on trying & exploring
& pulling strings & using such influence as I can
get hold of, & always looking for new influence.
It is not aneasy matter, & it will certainly require
great determination on both our parts. But there