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a few days after the event, my dear little Susan was born,
She was very [?}, but quite healthy. I had much more
pleasure in her than in Johns birth, or rather my pleasure
was more [un??]. With regard to John, my anxiety was such
that I was constantly apprehending some disease, or even instant
death - Oh how many tears I shed over the little
creature, in real anquish of heart; how often at night
waked to examine if she were alive - with Susan I
felt little or none of this, & I was only sensible of
the joys of maternity. This confinement would indeed have been
a happy period to me, had not the sweet hours of
convalescence been clouded with anxiety by the illness of
my dear sister - she however soon recovered. Since no one
could be better attended, nor could wealth ever purchase
such assiduous and watchful care - So the heart has termed
it & the gifts of he heart are not to be bought for gold.
Sister used to read at the mornings some entertaining
works, we dined late, after dinner I amused myself
with my children & in the evening my good husband
& often other friends joined this little affectionate circle.
Sister, left in the heat of July & that Susan was only threee
weeks old, we were induced to remove immediately to our
cottage - The billious fever was very prevalent in the city
& ?? children very sickly - I had a severe attack of fever
and believing it to be billious, I was so alarmedby the idea
of its communicating to the family, that I insisted on an im-
mediate removal - When therefore the fever went off, we took
advantage of the interval, I was putinto a carriage
& supported by my dear husband , with my children & Susan
set off for the country. In the scenes that followed most
forcibly did I feel the advantages of the disposition
with which a kind Providence had blessed me, for I
believe no effort of reason, would have reconected
me, to [ ??] which with my [??] became