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to spend it as I think best. I have better to avoided
being left to such entire solitude, but perhaps I shall
find it for the best & it is now my firm resolution
to try more [faithfull?] to discharge all my duties,
& better to improve my time than I have [?]
ever done. The reflections of this morning, will I hope
extend their benign influence over many, many months
to come! - How many duties have I neglected this
last winter, how has my time run to waste! Alass
the tears I have this morning shed over the loss of
so many months, will not obliterate my faults,
but may nourish the good intentions for the future.
Most sincerely have I prayed to my heavenly Father
for his aid. - During the winter I have par-
-ticularly to reproach myself for having neglected
the duties of charity & most particularly of three
unfortunate families. The widow, not only bereft
of her husband, but of her property, I ought to have
consoled & supported, & I should have instructed
the children of the other families & if possible
have assisted them. - I cannot think of these neglected
objects of charity, without bitterly reproaching myself
for that indolence which was the cause of this neglect.

Alass to have many vices does indolence lead, it
is the source from whence all my errors flow.-
For God has given me neither a bad heart or a
a weak head, & yet I commit faults which are
incident to both. - Oh my creator, make