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As a thirsty man drinks - so shall I drink, of your love (deeply and long) You flatter me as a lover; how could anyone else compare when they haven't anyone half so desirable to excite & inspire real passion. I feel much, that were I even unfaithful I should forever regret it & consider myself far too unworthy to share our future Paradise. That alone will keep me virtuous. Nothing (or no one) really worth while was ever won or accomplished without handship or adversity.

Darling, I'm thrilled when you tell me how much I mean to you. Don't ever doubt me. It is wonderfully true that 'Absence makes the heart grow fonder.' Of course I appreciate your wanting to know whether I'd changed, and it's worthy of you to demand it. Nothing can change love since our hearts dictate independant of the will. I realise though that the will to be faithful makes love happiness, as it was meant to be.
Nothing is further from my mind than desire when I am with native girls. The stark dread of disease, the £150 fine & consequent disgrace alone is sufficient to discourage anyone,
even in a weaker moment. Unless you lived amongst them I can hardly expect you to understand our reactions as regards their bared torsos & breasts. Strange as it may seem, I feel no embarassment or sordid pleasure, but admire their physique as I would a man's. I'll be frank with my impressions by saying I'd rather them revealed than hidden. Because
of their dark skin there is never any subconscious comparison felt between them and white women. May I confess that I admire their handsomeness, but I'm far too