32967-0001-0196

[centred] Gm

Fredrika Bremer and her

Swedish Sisters.

I am miserable. I feel an in-
describable inquietude. I am
conscious of a gnawing at my
heart, like that of a silkworm con-
suming a mulberry leaf. Whence m[y]
unrest, this deep anguish? Alas! beca[use]
I am so indifferent to what I desire to b[e] ...
Oh, my God! my God! make me bette[r] ...
Let me be of Service to my fellow-being[s] ...
Few can desire this more deeply, more
intensely than I do, yet how far behi[nd] [?]
the generality do I stand in this respect!
How repugnant I must be when all sta[y]
aloof. Yet I feel so warmly towards all!
The least kindness makes me inex-
pressibly happy; the least coldness, ever
from one to whom I am indifferent, com-
presses my heart as with a band of iro[n] ...
Alas! that I cannot dispense with hum[an]
love and sympathy, knowing, as I do,
that I have a Father in Heaven who kno[ws]
all my thoughts and feelings, and who
will never cease to love His weak, err-
ing child. Dear Lord, my love, my gra-
titude to Thee is boundless.

................................ Sophie Adlersparr[e]

Copied 17th June 1868.

Painfully, intensely so does the above
answer to my utmost daily experi-
ence. F.T. ... 1877.