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strange to say, while these became painfully more audi=
=ble but without detracting from the
sentiment of external silence which
pervaded me. I was in the midst
of a dead inorganic world - not a
movement of life marred the intensity
of inaction. Looking from a high
cone of granite I could pass from
the curtailed area of our moonlight
into the immense blackness which
hung over Kennedy Bay - - Is it
a wonder that at such a moment
I thought of the dear companionship
of my race - Beyond this dark
shadow was the continent of America
which I as an explorer had carried
into these silent recesses - Here far
beyond must I cross these deserts
to reach centres of love and sympathy.
Thank God minus sixty did not
allow much of this sort of thinking.

[margin] Wed. Jan. 10

The new arrangements work
unexpectedly well. [It is a sad loss
to have our scanty room encroached
upon by others [and] but it is a positive
trial to be forced to adopt a rigid
discipline and be under a guarded
restraint of manner - but it cant be helped.]
helped - All our old times ease and
social intercourse must cease - I am surroun=
=ded by untrusted men - Dr. Hayes
still occupies my bed - his toe is healing
and his tolerably hard worked Captains
sleeping as he can catch it - on a [camp?]
stool shake down - The man takes it
cooly and gets it thank God ungrudging=
=ly - I will share with these men llike
brothers but I can give them no trust.