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had prophesied this, I should have exclaimed "Impossible!"

Here then is the situation as I see it. I have been
unselfish. I have not thought of myself as having a welfare
or success apart from the welfare of the institution I have.
I have completely identified myself with the University you
founded. I have devoted my whole soul and strength to the
glory of Stanford trusting that Stanford would look out for me.
The thought that this University would not be-have as other
Universities and employers and look after my interests in
turn has been so far from me that I had not even noticed that
all my colleagues had been re-appointed, while I had not been re-
appointed.

Mrs. Stanford I do not want to stay unless you can give
me that degree of confidence which I deem my just due for
faithful service, and without which I can do no good work here.
I am loyal to you, and out of reverence for you as mother of
this University will conform to your wishes in every way I can.
I will do everthing [sic] but sacrifice my self respect.

But I hardly know how to be more discreet than I am. I
have no dealings or acquaintance with politicians. I
identify myself with neither party, being at once protectionist
and anti-imperialist. I refrain from the public discussion of
all economic questions that have become party issues. I
devote nine tenths of my energy to the class room. I have spoken
but three times outside during this year. Now if after taking all
these things into consideration you can reach no settled con-
fidence in me as can support me in my work here, I should prefer
to know it now rather than later.