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My Sweetheart,

*!!@**! the postman- two days in a now without a letter from anybody, and
more important no letter form you! I expected one just now when I went to the little
box since I hadn't gotten one yesterday; so I was left especially empty handed this
time. But maybe I'll get even tomorrow and get a stack I hope so. I hope nothing
is wrong with you darling that you couldn't write. And after two day days I kinda
miss you my love (which I would anyways naturally) and I know how it felt when the
post office goofed up my Rome mail. But mail or no mail my love flys direct to you
and I hold you close in my heart always. This sounds sort of corny and poetic. I know
but its really so completely true darling. Even over here my life is built around my love
for you an nothing else sums really important. I have fleeting interest in Spindler
and Antrho and in Herr Zimmermann and I enjoy visiting the Krauters or doing
things with MAC or Bridge or Mary JEanetter or others but really in every quiet moment
I know that all of these things are just sort of pills to pass the time away and I
really find my peace and fulfillment only in our love. I try not to think like this too
often because ti's sort of demotivating but it is such a basic reality that it comes
up again and again. SO I too am living in sort of suspended animation until June
oh that wonderful day! I love you Anne so very deeply that my feelings often
almost overwhelm me. But it's a wonderful sort of powerlessness to surrender to
the sweep and flow of our love for each other to be canied by it sometimes to tears some
times to laughter always to you. And in a few days I want have to live on dreams
and memories because we'll be one again! And in the meantime I have the daily
(well almost daily except for the damned postman!) know of quiet when I read your letters
and smell your perfume and fell your presence so close to me and then I sit like this
and talk to you silently sort of pour out my thoughts and feelings whatever comes at
the moment and send a little of me and a lot of my love to you I don't see how MAC
can write letters in class and other such places. I count on the quiet and full
concentration to "talk" to you instead of just to write about things to you.

Yesterday was a little more varied than most we had as guest lecturer a Mr.
Stockhausen from Koln who is a well-known composer of modern electronic music
has very radical ideas about the uses of sound and form etc. He lectured on the
ideas of his school of thought and played some of their music- it was to me pretty
coldly theoretical the music was dehumanized appealing it at all to the intellectual
and not the aesthetic senses. He was surely dedicated though and interesting to how
(he spoke last year at Stanford Calif.)

The last night for a pleasant contrast Mary Ann and I went into Stuttgart
to the hidenchalle to hear an evening of Bach Kantata the Stuttgart Chamber orchestra
and boys choir beautiful peaceful music highlighted for me by the last piece
"A mighty Fortress in our God" modified from the Luther music and wonderfully done.
Afterwards we had an hour until train time so we stopped in a little cafe for cheese
cake and coffee and leisurely (for me sleepy) conversation. Then back here at
12:30 Bridge and MJE joined us for a little "party" of tollhouse cookies (sent to
Bridge from Calif.) and champagne (a bottle for the four of us and very good too! )
So I finally tumbled sleepily into bed about 1:20.

I have to copy my music paper + do German now. G'Night sweetheart and
sweet dreams. And I sure do love you!

All my love always

Your George