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[cut off]:15 Eventually, Tony came over to say they were leaving. I wished him well, but my disappointment hopefully showed.

It wasn't a great loss, but I couldn't find anyone else. And some black queen kept trying to be nice to me, but I was truly sad.

3:30 Decided to leave, to get sleep. At Dick + Pat's. They're still up and I feel recluse, but I tell 'em about it after I get comfortable.

4:00 To bed, but I can't sleep, so I get up, and snort water which gives me a buzz + I have some good sex.

5:00 To bed, to rest

SUN, OCT 18 '87

10:45 Get up for cereal. Start writing this.

11:15 Dick leave sto get goceries, so Pat comes in and I get try the Gene Souza technique, but he's too hairy. But we have fun anway. Shower.

11:45 Write some more. Dick makes muffins. I looked for quote on MS, but no NASDAQ quotes. Compaq down 14! DOW down 108 points on Friday! More writing in here.

12:45 Judgments about last night. Sometimes you win on drugs, sometimes you lose. Last year I won big, at least as far as fun day goes: REDONDO. But there's been no long lasting value to that day, except wonderful memory. Last night was more of a typical LA night, very much feeling about LA as I did in 1985. Not much has changed, except Greg's Blue Dot is gone now. My favorite! I really don't need cocaine, or pot, but I did it here so as not to feel like I was excluding myself from them. I suppose if I lived here, I would feel the need for drugs, and other spiritual boosts. EVALUATION

1:00 Now the age-old question. What to do in LA on a Sunday, esp a cloudy one. At least I'm not as zonked as during trips in 1984 + 85. Less drugs. More sense.