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Not into Tugs so we go to Sparks which depresses me so I do coke when we get home Bill is too tired. But I have sex anyway. (It'd been two weeks since we went to bed.) Just me.

Sun Aug 10 Of course no morning sex. Cloudy breakfast at Kidd Valley. Go to Snoqualmie. Weak. Bad music. I want to relax. Maybe put energy into something I wish to grow into, but that is not Rolling Stones + rock! Let him go at 4:00 but he goes to Bobs and they have fun, so I feel bad. Dinner with Chuck, Bob, and Bill.

Mon Aug 11 Talk for 2 hours. Had decided that his lack of sex intensity was good way to offload Bill without rejection.

Wed Aug 13 Meet to use computer. He doens't stay over. I'm pissed at him (Ah, but it's what I want, not to do it with Bill). But I don't want to sleep with him. I want something better. I don't even like relaxing with him much. Some good things. But unprofitable.

Breakfast at Log Cabin Resort.

At Dan Donahue's, llay in sun.

Make tuna + pasta + lentil soup

1:30 Windsurfing lesson #2. First I get a board that is narrower than before by 5 or 6" so its much harder to balance plus a sail of 8.5 cubic yards!! That only lasted a half hour since I couldn't balance the board and hold the wind. Then we put on a 6.5 sail like last time, and I could do that in light winds, but it was not fun trying to balance that board!

And it really tires your back handling that board + sail in wind especially in a breeze. And the breeze wasn't even that heavy. So I drifted back + forth and ended up down by the lawyer from SF, and Julie broke her motor trying to get to me.