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Be more cautious. Of course, that's phooey for a quick trip like this, but I'm glad I learned on vacation, so I won't have to live with seeing the people again.

10:15 So we leave and stop in at bar on Peachtree. So so. And Blakes. Nice.

11:30 At Blakes, I feel very uneasy with Will + Bob, who is making me ucomf'ble. So we walk back to Armory.

11:45 I drive back to hotel, disappointed

12:00 Write up tonite. Think about it.

12:30 I guess I need to find out what I want in people and make friends with them first, of course, that means not sleeping with them first thing. Maybe I should sleep with no one awhile, until I no who I am socially, or whether I even have that side to me. Maybe I am destined for life at the tubs, but it's very limiting socially. I have feelings and I want to grow them, but not where I don't care to live. Maybe I should just work, but this has gone on for so long that I'm not interested in work, I have no family or home.

12:45 Sleep on that

Mon, June 1 '87

Restless sleep. Like being on coffee almost

8:30 Overslept. Get up. Shower, etc.

9:15 Go to keynote speech.

9:30 Arrive during preliminaries. Hear the speech. Not inspiring, but informative. I notice immediately how many suits + ties there were. As the day goes on I started to feel more + more self-conscious about wearing lt blue jeans. And no tie. As keynote pointed out, this is a show for selling, and for manufacturers to make partnerships with distributors.