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Parramatta 6th February 1822
Revd Sir
It is with feelings of deep contrition and heartfelt sorrow, I thus approach you, lest in consequence of the unpardonable and [unwarrantable?] breach made in your confidence on Monday, after the humane and christian [indecipherable] caution you lately gave me, and indeed I had [flattered?] myself from the efforts [effects?] produced on me by that [advice?] nothing would induce me either to [indec] or to
go into company [lest?] in an evil hour I was
unfortunately solicited to accompany a [wedding? no]
party I had formerly known while in [indecipherable]
Hospital, I invited [Isac?] to accompany me
who I am equally sorry for with myself, this
[lead?] to the inebriated state in which you saw
me. If I can only obtain your pardon and [forgiveness?] I will not only study to avoid the
repetition of such conduct in future but will guard against such pernicious habits as the ruin of my immortal soul the ruin of my constitution and the consequent result of [bringing?] me to disgrace and infamy and as the harbinger of all those ills which have led me to my present degraded state and had I not taken
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leave of my senses it ought to be a pride in one
to recover my liberty and restore myself once more
to that society I have so much lost sight of.
When such foolish and such wanton
irregularities known to my friends at home
it would produce in those who already consider
themselves disgraced by my conviction the
most poignant & heart rending sufferings
but I trust it will be with held from them
as I am certain it would do me no good and
would deter them from ever doing any thing
for the further [?] of my prospects
in life and upon the R d R. Hill it would
have the tendency of withdrawing any
friendship he may feel inclined to [?]
for me. I am well convinced how you
felt on the [?] and as I know how
painful it is for you to [?] to such
circumstances I expect no answer to this
and will look upon your [?] as
a token of your forgiveness, pledging
myself that should I again [?]
such goodness I will look for nothing
but [?] punishment. I have [?]
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enough to leave on my Desk and shall always
consider it as an additional proof of your
amiable & human disposition and as a
token of your regard for the welfare and
salvation of Souls. I am with respect
Revd Sir
Your obt Servt
Alex Buchan
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By what means will you pro ceed to Sydney? And when will you set out? I believe the plans of proceeding and the time of execu ting them, remains with you. It does not appear that one should [indecipherable] a party. I am, dear Sir yours affectionately, M. Walker Monday morning P.S. Meeting & [communion?] - Rev. T.H. in the chair
1211 My dear Sir As you were kind enough when at Appin to say you would perform the Marriage Ceremony I now beg leave to say it is to take place on the 22 of this month at Campbell Town where
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1212 I hope to have the pleasure of meeting you on the day which will ever oblige My dear sir Yours Truly C.T. Smith Appin[indecipherable] The [lovers?favor?] of our [indecipherable] will much oblige
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