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Raleigh 1st Sept 1865
[Hillsboro, N.C.]
Mrs. P C Cameron
Yours is to hand in regard to Butter I did not receive any sent on the 3[0?]th of august I have only recvd one tub in august which you sent on the 24th Butter is now very dull [sals?]
Very respectfully
Joseph Worable
Alamance Sept 8th, 1865
My dear Sir,
I am so miserable, that I can only write what I consider myself obliged to write, which is to say, that if well enough to leave home, I will be at your house next Wednesday evening, so as to accompany you to Mrs Mordecai's in the next morning's train. Mr Curtis tells me that, agreeably to my request, I was not appoint -ed a delegate to the Council, which, for several obvious reasons, is pleasing to me & very proper, I think. You this speech from coming in the Council, I wish to be at it, and therefore, if I can, I will attend as above mentioned. I have been generally and much plagued by the state of my stomach about since I was at your house, & for the last two days been more annoyed than usual, with also suffering from threat. So that I do not know that I can leave but, if possible, I will. The family will write numerous cases/showing with away the negroes remaining here - With love to all I remain, awaiting with much intense affectn. Your friend, Morris Ruffin Paul C. Cameron Esqr Hillsborough Let Mr Mordecai know.-
[8 Sept. 1865] Paul C. Cameron, Esq. Hillsborough, No. Ca.
Cameron Family I left Haw River this morning. Judge Ruffin told me to tell you that he can not stop here Wednesday night if he goes to Raleigh, because the train leaves at such an unreasonable hour. He is right uneasy and I doubt if he goes. I will be over to see you tomorrow. With great respect H. P. Jours Friday evening
Hillsboro Sept 6th 65.
My dear sir, I acknowledge with much pleasure your kind and friendly letter and thank you for this manifestation of interest in me & mine. I am at all times grateful for the sympathy of friends - pleased to know that there are many whose good opinion I have I shall seek to continue to merit it.
I should very cheerfully address your suggestion did an opportunity offer - I attach but little importance to my individual opinion - & whilst I have no wish to intrude I certainly have no purpose to withhold or conceal my views- either as to the present or past. In the past I certainly was an earnest & a honest "Confederate" - as alike from the convictions of duty and interest.
I honestly thought that my first duty & allegiance was to my Native State ... And if in following its fortunes to which it was pledged by the most solemn act, in a Convention of its ablest jurists, the most conservative men - the most trusted & time honored of its statesmen - [illegible] high long & all known for their deep interest in their country - I committed an error. I do aver that it proceeded from no love of strife - or ambition perhaps - but from convictions of duty to state & section.
But from the day that that great & good man Genl. Lee announced to the world that he had "yielded to Superior numbers & resources," I regarded the issue as settled - the conflict closed - the struggle for Southern independence a failure but no sane man - here or elsewhere entertains a thought of the removal of the conflict. Whatever may be our trials - large or many be our losses - hard as may be our fortune -