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has gone from a world where it would have known sorrow &
trouble to a better one, which better one, it might have found
a hard struggle to reach. Charles is another servant we have &
one of our best. M^r Perry purchased him from M^rs [Proustom]
at the same time with a tract of land of 120 acres, that join-
ed the land we purchased from M^rs Harrison. He lives
on the farm & Jim & himself cultivate it. A carriage I have
now owned for a number of years. M^r Perry purchased
it the summer he was electioneering for the Senate. There
are so many things, to enumerate, I scarce know in what
order to place them. I have now been married 11 years last
April, & they ought to have been 11 years of happiness, but
owing to my habit of overlooking my blessings, & dwelling
on my trifling discomforts, they are not been as happy as
I feel concious they ought to have been. With such a husband
as I have, I ought to have been happy; even if trials & afflic-
tions had been my lot; but my lot has been favored. My husband
is kind, generous & considerate, indulgent & loving; When he
married me, his love for me was idolatrous, as his letters pleas
those letters I have been lately reading, & they have made me
sad. I feel for such love, as his generous heart poured out
on me, my life in return ought to have been one devoted
to his happiness; that while I had him near me to protect
& shelter, I ought to have derived nothing due, except the con-
sciousness of performing my duty. When I see what a life of
happiness, my husband looked forward to, became blessed with
my love. I feel how far far short of his expectations, his wed-
ded life has proved. For he has found me, instead of happy
contented, & innocent, unhappy, discontented, & repining, when