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May 6th 1868 Little did I think when I last wrote in
this journal that 20 years would elapse before I wrote in
it again. I have not during that time ever read it over
that I can remember, or I am sure I would have written
in it. I have lately been reading my husbands journal
which he has kept for more than 30 years & it is so interes-
ting I regret he too let many years elapse at different [time]
without writing in it, reading his diary, induced me
to read mine, & I intend now to resume & write whenever
convenient. I will mention all I remember of the past.
Reading my husbands journal has brought back the
past most vividly; & made me sad. What a wealth
of love he poured out on me, & how little I deserved
it. I do not think ever was woman so loved by man
as I have been loved; & never by so noble a man.
My darling husband is the noblest being that ever
lived. no on so honroable as him; he may be said
to be the very essence of honor; he is incapable of
doing a mean or wrong thing; in this respect he is
different from every one. Christians so called may
not call him a Christian; but in my opinion he is
more of a Christian than all the professing Christians
put together; he has committed but one sin in his whole
life, that fatal duel, fought when he was a young man,
before he married, & brought on intentionally by the wicked-
ness of the [Nullifiers]. They wished my husband out of the
way, & got a man to come here as an Editor to insult
him, knowing my husbands keen sense of honor, & that
a difficulty would ensue, & hoped my husband would