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These reflexions are forced on my experience.
I could but mark with surprise yesterday the
cold concern of a gentleman unquestionably
my friend when I was well. He had not seen
me in many week, knew I was very ill. Long
acquaintance, esteem, and often professional
friendship, one would suppose, would [short]
ly have manifested warrent of feeling
and sympathy. Such would have been the case I k
now with myself: for thus much of myself
I know. As we naturally respect those only
who sympathize with us, so we must [for]
[-- titled] from the demeanour of people tow
ards us while we are afflicted by particular
circumstances. From this consideration I
shall yield to the impulse of feeling rather
than [for--]. I shall not visit a man merely bec-
cause he ranks high in his fellow man's
esteem to [--] people to now that such
distinguished character is my firend. A certain
lofty independence tempered properly with
sense and magnimity is necessary to man
among his fellow worms of this world.
Dollars and cents or its representative are the only
bail to ensure a fulll attendance by every body
on the sick, therefore wo! be to the sick one that
[have] much money. This may be thought by some
a hard reflection by a Christian man and woman,
but it is as true as the preaching that hard money will
make people hard hearted if this is [p--] gain, or
soft hearted a very turtle dove or angel if that be the
way to gain, not men's disinterested friendship
men's interest on the hundred or thousand dollars
in hulks huge as leviathans. Good wine, rich
cookery too disguise and make friends. Thus
is the world. Disgust with the world! A better in
eternity should be prepared for.
All this proves "an honest man is the noblest
work of God." True sterling honesty can not
bind to slow deception hypocrisy and mean avarice
at the expense of proper friendship nobleness and dig
nity of human nature. So ends.