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2 of your jars( one quite full the other was full when the lard was hot). I will keep until further orders. the jowls and ? will be put in the barrel with the? They would not keep if sent dry. I have the corn now grinding to fill a barrel of grist If I can now sift it, I will but from present appearances feared shall have no one to do it. I want to kill some of my own hogs tomorrow. I would have done so today but hoped ladt night Buster would be here to superintend for me. I will send you a cheese tomorrow-
a? by the? will give you a better idea of what is sent. I wish William would charge me with the freight of what goes tomorrow and whenever I do send anything to the house. I am so sorry ? is not in? the first trouble to you will be so great. These dear? you are so ? of your precious health when you imagine you must do a thing. I am so worried-so anxious about dear Butler ? and my three precious girls if I was only sure they did not attempt to? today I would feel easier- it is so bitter cold and the wind so high-they would all perish with cold- so much for pleasure seeking. This cold is filling the hospital with sick negros. I can see that they have bad colds. I fear it will be worse instead of better. Kiss each dear child for me. Tell them mother already longs to see themand hear their dear voices. Everything belonging to them and to you is sacred to me.