Little Dorrit Vol.1 f.023 recto

“As an Englishman who has been more than twenty years in china, no.”

“Then,” said Mr Meagles, laying his forefinger on his companion’s breast with great animation, “don’t you see a Beadle, now, if you can help it! Whenever I see a Beadle in full fig, coming down a street on a Sunday at the head of a charity School, I am obliged to turn and run away or I should hit him. The name of Beadle being out of the question, and the originator of the Institution for these poor Foundlings having been a blessed creature of the name of Coram, we gave that name to Baby’s little maid. At one time she was Tatty, and at one time she was Coram, until we got into a way of mixing the two names together, and now she is always Tattycoram.”

“Your daughter,” said the other, when they had taken another silent turn to and fro, and after standing for a moment at the wall glancing down at the sea had resumed their walk, “is your only child, I know, Mr Meagles. May I ask you—in no impertinent curiosity, but because I have had so much pleasure in your society, may never in this labyrinth of a world exchange a quiet word with you again, and wish to preserve an accurate remembrance of you and yours—may I ask you if I have not gathered from your good wife that you have had other children?”

“No. No,” said Mr Meagles. “Not exactly other children. One other child.”

“I am afraid I have inadvertently touched upon a tender theme.”

“Never mind,” said Mr Meagles. “If I am grave about it, I am not at all sorrowful. It quiets me for a moment, but does not make me unhappy. Baby had a twin sister, who died when we could just see her eyes—exactly like Baby’s—above the table, as she stood on tiptoe holding by it.”

“Ah! indeed, indeed?”

“Yes. And being practical people, a result has gradually sprung up in the minds of Mrs Meagles and myself which perhaps you may—or perhaps you may not—understand. Baby and her baby sister were so exactly alike, and so completely one, that in our thoughts we have never been able to separate them since. It would be of no use to tell us that our dead child was a mere infant. We have changed that child according to the changes in the child spared to us and always with us. As Baby has grown, that child has grown; as Baby has become more sensible and womanly, Baby's sister has become more sensible and womanly by just the same degrees. It would be as hard to convince me that if I was to pass into the other world tomorrow, I should not, through the mercy of God, be received there by a daughter, just like Baby, as to persuade me that Baby herself is not a reality at my side.”

“I understand you,” said the other, gently.

“How baby herself thinks on this particular point,” pursued her father, “I don't know; but, probably pretty much as her mother and I do. The sudden loss of her little picture and play fellow, and her early association with that mystery in which we all have our equal share but which is not often so forcibly presented as a child, has necessarily had some influence on her character. Then, her mother and I were not young when we married, and Baby has always had a sort of grown-up life