Page 4 April 10, 1863

d; perhaps you save money for that there-
fore, it is rather too much uncertain to
provide for such things. You need the
money now: we are in debt, which
is a case that requires immediate att-
ention: therefore employ such means
as you have, to halp defray the debt. M-
ish as to have my money saved for my
special benefit; when those, who are alm-
ost as dear to me as my own life, are in
want. If you do, you are utterly ignorant of
my temperament. I would share my
last morsel f of food with a fellow be-
ing; yes, if he needed it, I would give all.

So, do not think that I desire my m-
oney that I give you for some future
purpose of self. I shall give as long
as I can, an then fall , if fall I mu-
st, with the blessed consciousness of hav-
ing done my duty.

You speak of having paid sums
out of your own pocket. I know
you have done so, but, mother, I do
not think that you will have squan-
dered it, as you seem to think. Your
money shall be returned if God g-
ives me means wherewith to do so, an-
d that I will not be obliged to do all
this myself I am sure, if Henry is
prosperous, for he will not let you go un-
paid. But if you need any money fo-
r your own secial use I wish you to
take of what I send you. Take those thirty
dollars of gold if you need them and my
approval is hereby given you. I hope that
I may never have occasion to speak
on this subject again, as I have done it
sufficient justice by this time.