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going to be so much longer delayed again. And then
again the Far East is so grim. In time we in the
U.S.A. + China + the Dutch will smash Japan to
pieces. But if only this had not happened just consider
how we could have concentrated on Germany, how
all our & America's supplies would have come to the
U.K. + M.E. + Russia. Why couldn't those dirty little
yellow bastards see that for them to go to war was useless
+ hopeless. All they have done is prolong the war + cause
everybody to lose more lives + property + cook their own
eventual goose.
And Churchill has spoken in the H of C today- he seems
to have been magnificent, but terribly serious + realistic,
+ looking forward into 1943 + onwards. I feel like
you, darling, a cold lump in my stomach when people
like him talk like this. I just cannot see myself
away from you for more than another year - it's impossible
+ I feel as though I have borne enough already, + I am
quite sure you feel the same.
Oh God, darling Barbara, what have we done to deserve
all this misery? If only Lisa were alive + you had
our darling & Maxie too- I could feel miserable +
miss you to bursting point, but I could still feel
that we had so much to be happy + thankful about +
so put up with things. But this is prolonged misery
& torture, & it comes on top of the biggest blow which
you & I, together, possibly could have been called upon
to suffer.
But you know all this as well as I do, & it does not
help you for me to write in this way - I will
try to be more cheerful & interesting.