p.

8.

and [illegible] & ideas do not quite agree with the official
ones. But the Corporal was very nice & had he
had told them about me - so I finally agreed &
am going to talk about the building up & training
of the British Army before & during this war.
This will, I hope, interest them & also keep
me away from thin ice. They are buggers those
Jews: they always seem to have a newspaper & reporter
handy, & if one says anything vaguely pro Jewish they
pick it up & write it & publish it. The main reason
I am doing it at all, one, was publicity for myself.
I have had to ask permission from Area H.Q. which
in time may help me to get home, or get on
the former list, by/or this seems important & I am
increasingly certain that one has to be a Regular
to get beyond a Maor in this Army. I have been
of some new appointments today & for all of which
I'm quite [illegible] I should be most [illegible]
that the people who have got them all Regular
in a way, [illegible] is natural to assumed [illegible] Regulars
[illegible] more officer than [illegible]
[illegible] the assumption is [illegible] on a serious &
misconception.

I now crop & go to bed & send this off in the
morning. I'm on teriffic tenterhooks about my
application any day now. I may get a reply to
say to or stay. God what a difference between
the two. If I stay, as I expect I shall. I shall
go on loving you & missing you. & trying to come
home - & you must try & [illegible]. Every scrap of my love [illegible]