p.

help myself.
Oh darling - I do love you & miss you so. I shall
go to bed now & try again tomorrow. XXX H.
Monday 15 Dec Thank you - the silence broke today & I had
your letter no. 66 of Oct 18 - also p.c. posted on Nov 30th but
dated Nov 26 by you. So darling, you can imagine that
I now feel very much lighter in [tears ?] I'm hoping
that more will follow in reasonable succession,
so that my awful oppression will be lifted for a
few weeks & I may write you long & lovely letters.
You were saying in your letter that you felt
guilty on account of writing me miserable letters
& making me sad & unhappy. Well, the guilt if
such it is, seems to have transferred itself to me
now. I am doing that very thing to you. But
darling, I feel that you will understand &
certainly not want me to force myself to write
& I did not feel, in any case. I could not do
it, as you know me well enough. I certainly
have nobody else to unload onto, and it does help
quite a bit. Naturally I would much rather
that you had been able to write happy letters
before Maxie was born but as you could not
I much prefer that you should write me
what you feel & were going through than
that you should have to pretend & not
pour your heart & soul too, any body at all - in