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2. 1-5-1870

that made me smile - that I have about an earlier day
than Sept 15th perhaps it is not but to think of it, I dont
know. Only tell me just how thee feels about it when thee
has thought it over by thyself - I am afraid [???] of thy
family approves thy choice much. I am very sorry, but
they must take me on trust, and try not to judge what I
shall be, by what I have been. And yet, why should they
not judge me so, for thy cannot know how love has
changed my life, and all its aims and purposes.
I wonder if they can know what good cause I have
to be thankful for them? O, how I thank God for thee,
thou life of my soul, thou light of my life, "mine in
this world and the world to come," who has made life
something better than I ever dreamed it could be.
As long as thee loves and trusts me, I doubt I can much
what the [???] of the world (what a little part thy [heart?] is!)
thinks of me, only I am sorry to have those who are
dear to thee, troubled about thy future. What a
darling thee is, precious love, to write as thee did on
about the 15th. I dont believe thee knows how much
I thank thee for it. And how glad I am thee is
not shy about it now - it used to bother me so to
know thee feels so. Father had a letter from Anna
last night. Lloyd was better of the attack of [???]
and the others will, only Anna had troubles [???] a good
deal. I don't quite understand how it is, but I am
afraid Tim's California plan has [???] in the pan
Here is what Anna writes - "Jonas writes that before he
rec'd our letter, he had engaged for the winter all
the men needed. We both regret this exceedingly, feel
-ing that a [chance?] that is all probability will never
[???] again has been lost. If Lloyd was out then
he could urge Jonas to renew the [???] of keeping