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the means of recovering [deleted]thy[/deleted] his loan for much
as I wish it may all fall to [deleted]thee & thine[/deleted] him & his,
I would live in poverty, than wade in the
chilling stream such a procedure as this
would involve. I have not yet heard the
Dr's. destination, but it is probably Cuba,
hope to hear soon.

I should have rejoiced in a visit from
and with you here among you loved ones,
but could not obtain for you even the moi-
ety I had hoped to; and if R. could not obtain the
other, we must relinquish all hope of meeting
this season at least. I beg you will not im-
agine me in trouble, dear Sister, for I owe L. M.
but about $[11?], and can manage to do without
a few articles, that I had thought the approach-
ing winter would demand, and but for means
of helping my poor Br. R. who needs my assist-
ance I should think myself well off and
indeed compared with many in this trying
season I do think I have no cause to com-
plain. I am surrounded with comfort and
kindness, and, in my [underline]own particular[/underline], have
nothing to sigh for, but a release from
my little school, which I wish to continue un-
til Jane Gordon arrives, when I hope to re-
linquish a business for which my age and in-
firmities have disqualified me; for though my
health is much improved, my memory is ve-
ry poor, and claiming no authority, I am easily
perplexed. I am thankful however that Di-
vine aid is never sought for in vain, but
is ever near, preserving me from procuring