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20th 9 mo My brother Silvanus Macy departed this life this day between three & four o'clock in the afternoon. He was quite unwell on the 14th but kept about & attended to some business at the Town house in the evening. The night following, his sickness (the diarrhoea) [DIARRHEA] increased very severely, which mostly confined him to his bed. It very soon appeared that is was likely to prove his last sickness, this he seemed by some expressions made by him to be quite sensible of. On the 3rd day of his sickness I had a short interview with him, at which time he appeared quite sensible. He told me he was very sick & did not know how it might turn with him but that he felt entirely resigned to whatever was best. For many months previous to his death he appeared rather in a declining state of health. He often had sick turns, but kept his feelings mostly to himself, not being of a dispostion to complain. My being with him so much he often would impart to me his infirmities of body and distress of mind, the latter was caused by some family misfortune, which no doubt to me was the most severe trial that ever he met with and probably shortened his days. He seemed to have a presentiment of his approaching end for some months previous to its taking place. We often communed together in private, at which times he opened to me his feelings, by which I found that he was inconsolable, and that my endeavours to quiet his mind was altogether unavailing. The unexpected difficulty & embarrassment of one branch of his family & the circumstances attending it brought such deep distress of mind upon him that, although some years had elapsed, it never was eradicated from his thoughts, so as to be quiet & comfortable either in body or mind, which I have no doubt preyed on his nature & often brought on new complaints of bodily infirmities.