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to concealment when with Maria for though I cannot [ ] why, I too have
felt it, yet there have been moments in whichI could [. ] myself to her, but
they have seldom occurred. [. ] Margaret, I would not wish to appear
unkind, yet I shall write with less freedom, less as I have talked to
you, if you suffer my letters to be seen by another than yourself. Every
thing that relates to me particularly must be reserved entirely for
yourself.

Sunday July 13th

I was not going on the battery when you took your solitary ramble
but I was wishing for a walk there. The day had been extremely warm,
and contrary to custom I marked the lengthening shadows with pleasure,
in the hope that evening would bring with it some refreshing breezes
which I might enjoy in the [. ]. But perhaps nobody will come. Oh yes
I am sure Mr _____ will be here, for I have not seen him since Monday. The
evening advanced, no one came, I felt something like a disappointment, yet deter-
mined to resist it. Come dear Eliza, and sing me some of your sweetest songs
I want to be soothed to night. she complied, her notes never fail to open my
heart to pleasure, they were most successful, and my intended walk was al-
most forgotten, when my [. ] arrived, and about five minutes after
Dr. Rodgers made his appearance. I could not propse wlking to him so was obliged
to sit still. As soon as he departed we went to the battery’ Eliza was with me,
just as were going out Mr. Brown entered, I mentioned our intention and in=
vited him to join us. No, he could not walk, but would not detain us. I shall
be at home tomorrow, let me then have the visit you intended making me
to night “____” You shall. “_____ The air was delicious, yet I could not long enjoy
it, The evening was almost gone, and you not here to sanction my remaining till
eleven. “You have heard from Miss Bayard. “__” No, I have not “__” You have not, what can be the reason of her not visiting. I am surprized at her silence.” I regretted it, but thought she might be engaged with her [. ] — “Perhaps so”. —