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her and avoided all
this trouble. Poor Capt. Mc
Nulty [?] I suppose has not
written home to his friends
till yet. He must have gone off
at a tangent - don't think
any thing of my speaking
in this way - this Country
has made me look with
perfect indifference upon
the loss of life - But it
cannot diminish the
strong feeling of attachment
I have always felt towards the
loved ones for whom I have
been with from childhood -
Oh if I could but have been
with you when this thing
occured then I would not
have cared so much -
How much our beloved Mother
must have been shocked.