Lydia_Gay_Diary

july 10 I descie to be thankfull for the Salvation of the night, and the light of the morncig, and I am better in health, we are born into this world crying; we live in it sorrowing, for any comfort it can yeald us, when cardinal Woolsey was cast off by his king, he said, had I served god as faithfully as I have my prince, he would not have treated me thus "the more we know of this world, the more we See of its folly" and vanity the more we enjoy of its Smiles, and friendship, So much the more Sorrow and wo, but with our heavenly fallier it is quite otherwise he never leave nor forsakes, whomes he love he love unto the end, a rain and damp day, we want rain for the Earth is very dusty and dry, O this teach us our our dependance upon god for all the comforts of life,

july 11 I am not So well this, morning a pain in my Side, but I desire to be thankfull for the Sleep that i had. and am able to rise from my bed to read thy word and call on thy name, hear me when i call, O god of my righteousness: thous hast enlarged me when I was in distress, have mercy upon me, and hear my prayer a Stormy day this is what the Earth Suffer for thy mercies fill the earth. O lord how good thy works appear open mine eyes to read thy word, and See thy wonders there, this mroning Extract a tooth a doble one and Sound, how thankfull for this mercy O how good in the Lord to me, to keep my feet from [?] a gainst a Slone, a great rain this afternoon

12 I am a woman that has [?] affliction by the rod of his hand, remembering mine affliction and my misery the wormwood and the gall, my Soul hath them still in remembrance, and is humbled in me O my Dear children, my Son Last word was Father Father he died with out a grone, and Lydia Last words was all is well thus died my beloved children, its it affecting to think that they are gone I can hardly make it Seem a reality yet that it is So: that the countenance on which we looked So recently, is changed: that they Eye is closed: that the tongue is mute: that the heart is cold: that the whole forme is mouldering back to [?], yet thus it is, and it shows us strikingly the frailty of man he came forth as a flower: but is cut down and Withered, O man. what wilt thou build for thyself on Earth,

13 [?] Sorrow like mine, my Sins deserve thy jugments, the pains and [?] and dissfactions, which are felt on earth, are the result of having turned aside from the right way, man, by Wandering, has foreaken the fountain of living Waters, he has overlooked angels food, and feedeth on ashes, of course, his immortal Spirit must feel itself in want, friends are cut down by our side, to admonish us of our own approach change, and bid us seek a part in that world were they neve die, Smitten friends are angels, [?] on errands full of love for u they languish, and for us they die and shall they languish. shall they die in vain,

Friday morning had my meeting a usal a very Solmn Eeason I bileave that very heart was warm with the love of God, and I trust that they carre a way of blessign withe them, my Fances took a part Elisebeth went to the country for her health. I am left alone, my Dear Son and Lydia, and my Sister is in the country, and like wise Mr Ingalls, there is a comfort to know that Some are a live, when other are gone, will not an event which thus manifests your Slender hold on life, prevail on me to Seck the kingdom O who will put to hazard there immortal welfare, by trusting to an uncertain hereafter, while we delay, death hastens, Even youth is no Security against his [?],