Lydia_Gay_Diary

july 17 Saterday mrorning I hope that I feel greatful for the weeak and the Last nigth, and Frances was hear at prayre and Dear Maria to join with me at the throne of grace

july 15 the Lord day my birth day and the last day of 63 of my Sinful life. what am Exhibition will that day produce, then the Secrets of all hearts will be laid open, all my actions, and all the springs of them, in all the myriads which shall appear at bar of god, will there be Such a Sinner 1832 March-1811-Because a [?] of Dr [?] church-Removed to Park St. 1816. where can language be found to depict my ingratitude, my madness my folly: and where to descrbe the Long Suffering, the compassionate remonstrances: the kindly fatherly chastisements, the repeated pardons, and restorations of my gracious god in days of youth, aggravating my renewed backslidings, bringing upon my Sinful Soul vengeance for my inventions I Set apart the day for fasting and deep humitiation took another [?] of my past Sinful Life confuscin

confessed particulars on my knees, and maid a fresh application to the blood of Sprinkling which cleanseth from all Sin, took a freash how of his new covenant of promise I rest my immortal Soul on thy promise, at Part St this morning [?] the 9 chap and the 6 verse Wonderful, counseller, the mighty god, the everlasting father the prinec of peace, he Spoke of jesus borth and his fuffirens and death, he observed that abram ofered his Son [?], ware jesus was crucified on mount Moriah, it was great Sermon, i wihs that I could remember it I came home and foudn my Dear friend [?] Grew in the intermision we had prayers and read the bible, and a Sweat Season, o that I could Spend all my time with Young christens in the afternoon at [?] romans the 2 chap [?] vers the Goodness fo God leadeth thee to repentance

16 give ear to my words O lord, consider my meditating hearken unto the voice of my cry my king and my god for unto the will I pray, my voice shall thou hear in the morning O lord in the morning will i direct my prayr unto thee and will look up, Lord guide me in the Secret way With Such a guide I shall not Stray bring me unto a heavenly fraim unite my heart to fear thy name, I [?] the afternoon at Chelsy for the first time I Ever was here, and the first time I drank tee from home this for year, never went out but to Meetings Since my Dear children death, I feel that I Should not go but Stay at home, I Saw christen friends that conversed a bout the best things

I feel i do [?] to go with the people of the World I know that is great Snare, and causes backslidings, Oh when shall I See all those I love flocking to christ Saying here blessed Saviour, I give thee all I have this broken, contrite heart, take it O [?] it as thine own wasn't in thy blood and Seal it for thy Self, that we may all have an interest in the blood of the Lamb at lost meet in heaven is the ardent prayer for my family. We long to see thy churches full that all the chosen race, May with one heart, one voice one Soul, Sing thy redeeming grace,