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enough or sympathetic enough to feel that you would
never forgive yourself if you were to get in the
way of my ambitions, & my career. Now, I find the
position almost reversed - I do not want to get in
the way of your art - & nor do I feel so ambitious
about the Assn as I did. And there are two main
reasons for this change; one, that I have more
feeling & sympathy & consideration for your wants -
& two - that I am now a Socialist, which I was
not before the war. And the main reason for
this change is that I have had time for reflection
& thought, whereas before, I was so busy & so
immersed in trying to run Norths at a profit,
that all my spare time was yours & Lisa's.
And I have not been converted or influenced to
any extent - & I am quite convinced that the change
which has come over me is mainly the result
of thinking things out for myself.

I don't mean to say that I am no longer ambitious
because I am, & more so than ever before. But
my ambitions now lie in other directions, & I feel
a very strong urge to play a part, & to fight,
to change England to real Socialism. I am not
interested any more in making big profits at
Norths, & getting on the board, & one day being
chairman - in fact, my interests are to fight to
prevent such things being possible for anyone.
In other words, I no longer agree with Capitalism
& working for 'profits'. I didn't actually agree before - I
just did not thinkg about it. You used to say