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to talk to when you want to - & time enough for Marie -
& time enough to write to me & to do some reading -
& not too much housework - & the possibility to go out
& see a film, or up to London, & the knowledge that
Ma is safe & in good hands while you are away.
I had no idea that the Tibbles would be like it has
been, & your first letters announcing your intention of
going there & your arrival there, gave me no suspicions
but that the arrangement would be adequate.
And so I do hope, darling, that at Juliette's, you will
achieve this system & degree of contentment.
It cannot be very complete or continuous, I know - the
way we love & miss each other prevents that, & so
does the unhappiness of the last 2 1/2 years. And all
the bad news which is always coming through - &
our maddlings & mistakes - all of which make it so
that we cannot look forward to any definite date
when we shall be together again.
And you say you are getting rather desperate
for me - and oh darling, I for you, too. It is a mental
& physical ache which is with me all the time.
I am so tired of talking to people who I don't
care a damn about - generally they are fools & not
worth talking to at all - & even when they are not,
I have no interest or sympathy in them. I yearn
to talk with you, about serious things, & little things,
& about love.
And my body & my senses ache for you too - I want
to sleep in one bed with you again, & hold your hand,
& kiss you sometimes passionately, other times lovingly,
& just little kisses too - to be able to stroke your