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that it might follow that our future life together may
not be the perfect & wonderful life to which we now
look forward. You must not think that I am white
washing myself, or being too good to be true -
because I have thought it all out quite hard. Not
being a saint, it is impossible for somebody as lonely &
unhappy & young & healthy, as I am, not to consider
the possible solutions. I have come up against various
attractive enough young women, & they mostly look
fairly kindly upon myself & my crowns - & I certainly
react to their shape & [ ?] & so on - but always
it makes me overwhelmingly nostalgic for you & that
is all I can think about. And there has been no
case of temptation, so far. And I have considered
temptation in its most incidious or difficult form.
For example, if I were to meet a pretty & willing
girl, & who was in the same condition as you
are, with her husband in England as the [ ?] -
& she wanted a solution too. I still feel that your
love for me & hold over me is easily strong
enough to resist temptation for me. And on top of
that, I have my love for you. I told you before,
I should hate & despise myself & be very disappointed
in myself.
No, my own darling one - you are the one & only
woman for me, & will always be so. And I
shall always fight & work & [ ?] so that I
am the only man for you
and for this war to end or me to be sent home.
And darling, you say that I alarm you, in